Life At The Unit

2008-03-01T19:18:53+01:00

I Have Now Been An Inpatient Of My Young Peoples Mental Health Unit For 73 Days. [Just Over 10 Weeks...] When I Was First Admitted I Would Never Have Expected It Would Be So Long...But Im Used To It All Now. Of Course I Haven't Been There Every Single Day... A Lot Of The Time Im At Home. My First 'Leave' Was Christmas Eve Til Boxing Day... Then A Couple Of Nights At New Year... Then Every Weekend Since. Also For The Past Few Weeks Ive Had Tuesday Night At Home Too. At Half Term I Got Longer Though. At First Home Leave Was Good... But Now It Stinks. Its Even Worse Than The Unit. [Which Isnt As Bad As It Was To Begin With But Its Not A Good Place To Be]. But Its Not As Bad As School [More Later] Even Though Its Close.

I Was Admitted For Anorexia Nervosa After Being Hospitilized For A While In A Pediatric Ward. Now Im Putting On Loadsa Weight. Yu'd Fink I'd Be Very Annoyed About This. But Im Not Bothered. Because My Whole Mental Health Has Got Worse. Im Not Bothered About ANYTHING Basically. Depression. Self Harm. Suicidal. Damn. All That And A Bit More.

I Had A Room-mate At First. We Were Both On BedRest For A Whole Month And It Was Boring As Hell. We Came Off Bedrest And Were Allowed To Go To Groups Downstairs On The 17th January. My Room-mate Got Discharged Last Monday... But She Had Hardly Been There In The Last Few Weeks... Always At School Or Home. Thats What Happens Before You Get Discharged... Yu Spend Most Of The Time Not There.

I Was On Eyesight Observation Aswell To Start With Which Was Very Annoying Too. x[ Got Off That The Same Day As Bedrest. I Was Then On 15-minute Checks But Now Im Just On General Obs - So As Long As They Know Where I Am Really.

Since Of Bedrest I Got To Know Other People Besides My Room-mate. I Have One Closest Friend There [Girl] A Quite Close Friend [Boy But Not In Any Other Way As Friend] And A Few Other Friends And Friendly Aquantinces. I Can Talk To Them But When Im At Home Or School I Hate Being Around People. Therefore The Doctors And Nurses Dont Know How Hard It Is... They Think Im Fine.

The Groups Are Helpful Though I Couldnt Be Bothered At First... But Now I Want To Try They Are Sending Me To School! Which Is Horrible!!!!! More About That In Another Post Later I Think.

Hmm Ive Wrote A Lot But Theres Still Loads More I Could Say. More Later. x[

Life Suckz.

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Life At The Unit